A friend of mine was reading my blog. She said for a moment she forgot who was writing because of the content. All the talk about children and marriage was uncharacteristic of me. Ofcourse, the me she was refering to was college me. Since the transition was sudden and quick many people did not have a chance to let reality sink in.
A part of me hasn't let it sink in either.
After being the type of person who on occasion would spend a quiet afternoon at home...very rare occasions, I am now the person who enjoys a nice relaxed evening out on occasions...extremely rare occasions.
When my day once started by lazily getting out of bed by the sound of the call to the Dhuhr prayer on my days off and on school days whenever my classes are. The only responsibility is classes and courses i choose and when I sleep I sleep, when class is over thats it. Vacations are truely vacations.
Now the summer time is the busiest time for me. I have to take the kids out all day long. The work is never ending. My day begins at the sound of one of the kids calling for mommy at around 5 am.
On my rare days out without the children my mind is always on them.
Which is better then or now?
I am reminded of the answer everytime one of my children succeeds in something and shows promise of becoming an active and positive member of his/her society.
Life goes on and each stage in life is different. Although I enjoyed my childhood much more than I am enjoying now but I will work hard to give my children the memory of a good childhood to comfort them when they are struggling in their adult lives for a better world.