Monday, January 8, 2007

When I was young...

I remember when I was younger I would always tell my mother when I have a baby I want him to call me by my name...I dont want him to call me mama I can't imagine!
So I would tell my mom I don't care what I'm going to have him call me Sarah!
Ofcourse the years have come and gone and here I am a mother and my son is still learning how to talk...
He calls me Mama sometimes.
My mother was teaching him he would say DAYAA.
This morning I was praying and the room was dark cause I wanted to go back to sleep. AbdulRahman woke up and wanted to get out of bed so what does he say...
I have to admit I like Mama better..Like my mother told me when I was younger, when you hear the word Mama there is a certain feeling you get like an accomplishment or a sense of worth. I love it!
Another thing I used to say when I was younger in school was. "I never want to become a teacher."
Because my mother is a teacher people used to assume I'd be a teacher when I grow up. I would say NO WAY I don't want a life stuck in a classroom waking up so early in the morning and going from class to class all day long.
Now I'm all grown up and you guessed it! I want more than anything to become a teacher!
Again one of the most gratifying jobs is to teach to see progress in your student/s.
I teach a friend of mine English and just the change in pronouncing the TH was amazing for me.
Anyhow I'll try to keep track of the "nevers" I told my mother when I was younger and how they have changed!

Sunday, January 7, 2007


"If I had seen the Muslims before I saw Islam I probably would not have become Muslim."
A comment that one hears alot from Muslim reverts living in the Arab world.
On the other hand I'm reading a book about Muslim reverts in the West. A common aspect of their coming to Islam is the way the Muslims welcomed these women into the Masjid even before they were Muslim.
A reason many Muslim reverts become muslims in the west is because they see how the Muslims have such an organized way of life. They see how they have a close knit community.
They see how Muslims have such strong self control that is common in all people.
The problem is alot of these Muslim converts still want to move to a Muslim country to be able to hear the call to prayer in the streets. To be able to pass anyone by in the street and say Salam Alaikom and know that they understand you and answer back. To be able to find a masjid on every corner. Basically to practice their religion openly and with the least possible temptations.
What happens is they come to these countries and find temptations they would not think they would find in a Muslim country. They find extreme difficulty in making a living in these countries. The people are always skeptical over whether they are really Muslims or agents of the West. The cleanliness of course is another issue. Lying. And many more problems.
If Muslims acted the way the Quran and Sunnah tells us to act, the world would get a better picture of Muslims.
If Muslims everywhere were clean. Polite. Waited for their turn. Did not lie. Followed their religion closely as they were ordered to, then the way of life that Allah created and gave us guidelines to would be achieved.

Tuesday, January 2, 2007

Chance Meetings

I travelled alot when I was young. Lived in many different places and met many different people. Whenever I leave the country I lived in there are always a few people I imagine meeting by chance.
I put a scenario. I imagine what I'm gonna tell them and how they will react that I'm married, with a child, munaqaba...very different from what I was when I knew all these people!
Anyhow so you imagine meeting certain people but u end up meeting TOTALLY different people.
Like today, I never imagined I'd see my P.E teacher from 9 years ago! It was nice though because this chance meeting sort of reminded me how nice certain people are and how they really made a difference in my life even though it wasn't a very apparent one. However. now when I think of it he was one of the most positive influences in my junior and senior years in highschool!
Anyhow these chance encounters remind a person that good is in the people you least expect and you should never underestimate certain anyone's role in your life. Every person you ever met has a certain influence in your life. Many times its not the exact role you you think it is.